youth.

So its been a while since I have blogged, it always seems to take that route when life gets the best of me and the busy days get away from me. I am not even sure where to begin other than the fact that this post will be about a passion that is stirring inside of me that I am just beginning to see is truly from the Lord. //// I got asked this summer to be the 'youth coordinator' for lack of a better word for our church's youth group this year or until a youth pastor/ permanent coordinator is hired. My first and honest thought was that I really didn't feel like this was something that I wanted to be a part of this year. For my own selfish reasons I would rather have my friday nights free and wasn't really interested in playing games and trying to come up with fun events to do every week. I feel like at that point, God tenderly tapped me on the shoulder and told me that wasn't how it had to be and that wasn't how it was going to be. A desire stirred in my heart to take on this task. This calling. This ministry, whatever it might be for the time being. I was forced to come face to face with the fact that I didn't and still don't really feel qualified for this position. I had to come face to face with the face that typically, in my opinion this leadership position is made for a man and i am clearly not that. And lastly face to face with the fact that God was calling me to give and lead in this season and i had no idea what that was going to look like and still really don't to be honest. //// Over the last two months, I feel like God has tenderly taken my heart and mind and shaping it to be inline with his, especially for this ministry. Showing me that its not about numbers of students, its not about fun events, its not really even about how many people in the church choose to support me in this but rather its about HIM. Its about His gospel. Its about those young people going deeper in their relationship with Him and truly knowing how much they are loved. How much He loves them. I think that in ministries we can tend to make things fun or have our own agenda and for get the real reason for doing something. Jesus Christ. //// As I have sat here today trying to figure out how its all going to go, what the next few months are going to look like, who will be leading and helping out, etc. God has brought two specific passages to mind. //// Galatians 6:9,10 'And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up. So then, as we have opportunity, let us do good to everyone...' Philippians 3:14 ' I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.'//// These two passages I have been able to cling to, to really just keep my eyes on Christ and what He is asking me to do. While I am not sure what the future holds with this ministry I trust completely that as I come with open hands and an open heart our God will not disappoint. All for His Glory!